My goals for 2017

I am determined to make 2017 the year I get healthy and *hopefully* pregnant!

With my 26th birthday a few days away, I feel like I’m running out of time. Early menopause runs in my family, so it’s time to get serious!

  1. Quit smoking ( This is the most important goals for many reasons)
  2. Get started on my diet and start taking the supplements I mentioned.
  3. Start an exercise routine. Walking around the block in the evenings or maybe yoga?
  4. Lose at least 10% of my weight. Studies show it could drastically improve my PCOS.
  5. Get good marks on my business certificate * to be completed in September*
  6. I am planning on getting a job either while I’m studying or after.I hope to get a job in administration but I’ll probably accept anything. Hopefully sooner rather than later!
  7. When I get a job I aim to save 10% of my pay to go towards baby stuff. So I guess the longer it takes for us to fall pregnant the more baby clothes I get to buy!!
  8. And last but not least, actually get pregnant! Seeing as my tubes are clear , I’m now on Metformin and I think I’ve found the magic mix of supplements, I would be surprised if I’m not pregnant in 12 months. *wishful thinking*
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The PCOS diet

A few months ago, I wrote about how I tried the ketogenic diet for weight loss. It only lasted 2 weeks as I gained 5 kilograms during that time.

Since then, I have done some more research about the effects of ketosis on PCOS and found that it can be very beneficial on women suffering from symptoms.

I have decided to give it another go but this time I will be following the PCOS diet guidelines and I won’t be focusing on weight loss as much.

Foods to avoid:

  • High GI foods: Cake, biscuits, white bread, pasta and rice etc.
  • Sugary drinks: Soft drinks, fruit juices and cordial.
  • Dairy: Milk, cheese, butter etc.
  • Soy
  • Caffeine (!?)
  • Alcohol
  • Fast food in general.

Foods to include:

  • Vegetables: especially green leafy veggies as they are high in vitamins.*limit starchy veggies such as potatoes*
  • Low GI fruits: apples,watermelon, oranges , blueberries etc.
  • Healthy fats: avocado, nuts, seeds, tuna and salmon.
  • Protein: organic and hormone free is best.

 Supplements to consider:

  • Vitamin D: known to improve insulin resistance.
  • Fish oil: known to decrease testosterone levels.
  • Inositol: some what of a magic pill. Known to improve hormonal balance, insulin resistance and gestational diabetes.

I have a feeling I will do a lot better on this regime as its more about sticking to the good foods list rather than trying to work out fat, carb and protein ratios.

My HSG Experience

After waiting 6 weeks for my cycle to start, I called the hospital and explained that due to my PCOS I could possibly be waiting another few months, I was definitely not pregnant and I just wanted to get it over with. They said as long as I tested negative on the day I was good to go so they booked me in for the following week.

The day of the HSG had finally arrived… and i was scared out of my skin!
I, like so many other women, had made the mistake of googling the procedure.

When we arrived at the hospital, we only had to wait a few minutes before my name was called. I was told my husband and my Mum could come with me and i started to feel a bit more at ease. We were led to another waiting and told the doctor would come and get us soon.

Twenty minutes later, a nurse came to get me. She told my family that they would have to wait in the first waiting room and she would come and get them when it was over. I nearly had a panic attack.

After getting changed into a hospital gown and taking a ( negative ) pregnancy test, i was led into a massive white sterile room with a bed in the middle of it. I laid down and was introduced the techs while they opened all the medical stuff and we waited for the doctors.

Once the doctors arrived, they explained the procedure, answered my questions and it was time to begin…

First, the doctor cleaned me, ( which was one of the weirdest experiences of my life) and inserted a speculum…and then a different speculum. He then disinfected my cervix and started inserting the catheter through my cervix and into my uterus.

At first it stung but he quickly started inflating the attached balloon, which resulted in the worst menstrual type cramps i have ever experienced times 20!
Once the dye was pushed through i felt alot of pressure but watching myself on the xray distracted me. I just kept thinking ” This is not as bad as labour will be. Just think of the babies”, and then it was over! The procedure itself only took about fifteen minutes but the prep took around an hour so i was keen to let my family know i was okay.

After i got dressed, the nurse walked me to the bathroom. I was still in a lot of pain at this point and as i walked out of the bathroom i had an overwhelming feeling that i was going to faint. The nurse noticed this, pulled me into a room, sat me down and went to find a wheelchair. She said she literally watched the colour drain from my face.

When the nurse came back, she wheeled me to the recovery room and went to get my family.
After taking pain killers and waiting the mandatory 30 minutes, it was time to go home!

All in all, it was the longest, most painful, exhausting day of my life but i wouldn’t change it for the world. Now i know that i can do anything if i want it bad enough and my fallopian tubes are cleared out.

The doctor said that in the 3 cycles following the HSG i will be very fertile. It’s been 2 weeks and i’m still waiting for my cycle to start.

Here’s hoping the doctor was right and i get pregnant this year!

My TTC Tag/ Update!

How long have you been trying to conceive?
Pretty much since we got married in October 2014.

How many kids do you have/want?
I don’t have any yet, but I would be really happy with one or two.

How old are you and your husband?
I’m 25 and my husband is 24.

How long have you been married?
It will be 2 years on October 21st 2016.

What are some crazy things you do while TTC?
I go completely OCD and write down every symptom so I can compare month to month.

Does your husband know all about TTC?
He knows the basics lol!

Have you been diagnosed with any kind of Infertility?
I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2014.

What keeps you busy during the 2ww? (2 week wait)
Not a lot! I pretty much countdown to the day I can test.

What day do you usually ovulate?
I don’t usually ovulate but when I do it’s around cycle day 17/18.

What gender are you hoping for?
I would be over the moon with either but I have a feeling I will have a boy first.

How many pregnancy books do you have?
3 or 4… Every time I see one in an op shop I can’t help myself.

How many home pregnancy tests do you take in 1 cycle?
Too many! Last month I took one every day for a week.

What are some stress relievers when TTC?
I am yet to find one 😦

Do you plan to do pregnancy blogs if you conceive?
I would love to do pregnancy blogs but we shall see!

What have you bought for your future baby?
Nothing! I am very superstitious and I believe its bad luck.

Do you have a birth plan?
I have an idea of how I want the birth to go but I know that it will probably be thrown out the window when the time comes.

*UPDATE*

I have my first appointment booked for November 11th 2016! I will definitely update you guys afterwards!

Harder than I thought.

When I first decided to create Dashlen’s Journey, I didn’t realise how difficult it was going to be to write 100+ words on what i was going through at the time. Not that my life is boring, it’s just hard to put into words.

Originally, I wanted to write about our struggles with infertility but seeing as we are STILL waiting for an appointment with an obgyn, I have already run out of things to write about.

One update i do have is that my body remembered how to ovulate!
For the past 2 months, my cycles have been 32 days.
Compared to previous cycles averaging 58 days ,I am feeling pretty hopeful!

The Hardest Part

One of the hardest parts about struggling with infertility is not knowing.

Not knowing when, or even if, our dream will come true.
Not being able to truly let myself look forward to the future
or make plans.
Never knowing what i should do next.

Trying not to get my hopes up every month, and watching
everyone around me finding it so easy to experience what i can’t.

However, I still have faith that everything happens for a reason
and i believe that God has a plan for me.
I just need to be patient and trust in Him.

 

So far this year… 

After being diagnosed with pcos in October 2014, my husband and I decided that we would try the old “relax and see what happens” method. Needless to say it didn’t work out for us.

In February 2016, I was put back onto birth control to try and regulate my non existent cycles. It. Was. Hell.  It was like being a 25 year old in a teenagers body. Ugh.

After doing a lot of research, I told my doctor I wanted to give metformin a go. She admitted she didn’t have much experience with pcos but agreed it was worth a shot.

In June, I swapped my birth control for what many women describe as a “miracle cure “.

I had myself convinced that June was our month. Every twinge and bubble meant something. On day fifty of my cycle I woke up in agony. Off to emergency we go, and after six hours of waiting, I was told I had an ovarian cyst “the size of a mandarin”.

Back at the doctors, and we both came to the same conclusion. Whether the metformin caused the cyst or not, it wasn’t worth risking it again.

Back to square one.